I just had a lecture that I hope to never forget. I will not share. I don't want to share. I wanted to record it and keep it all. I wanted to kick everybody else out and just sit there listening. I wanted it to keep going even though it went for an hour and a half. I feel I deserved it - or was owed it - while everybody else didn't. It doesn't matter why. I am not conceited. My take on the lecture was different than anybody else's, so my lecture will never be shared, will never see light.
Except when I very alone, when I will call upon it and examine it in the most burning light before returning. I have found my HR. I have found truth. I have found everything. I have found nothing.